Knock Knock!
Knock knock.
ā Whoās there?
ā Olive.
ā Olive who?
ā Olive getting free olive oil from the pharmacy because I just dropped major dinero on gonadotropins. š
(Mom joke flex: accomplished.)
Fig A: šļøā¤ļøš«
I think a lot has happened this week, but frankly, all I can recall is the daily wrestle with my amygdala, cortisol crescendoing until the clock strikes 9pm, auto-jabbings oāclock. šš
(Okay, Iām being a little dramatic about that mental hurdle; by day 2, I was already scripting in Spanish how to sheepishly admit to the nurse that she was right: al fin, soy valiente! š But seriously, to give you a sense of how much I hate needles: I donāt even carry around an epipen for my actual life-threatening food allergy. š¬)
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There is one other memory emerging from the endocrine-cranked mist: the intensely messy, haphazard process of moving forward on the epiphany I shared in the last blog post. Actually, forget for a moment building on the epiphanyā even just moving forward from the last post was a staggered affair.
Hot Potato Fail
Last week, I had summarized the issue I was noticing as follows (* preparatory cringe *):
āIf I might grossly infer from just three papers: it seems like anthropology and sociology, or at least as they are brought to bear upon the new field of AI in Education research, focus on culture as the unstructured data of the human emotional response. This anthropocentric framing leaves unexamined the rich, unstructured data that is the conversational back-and-forth itself. And yet that is precisely where āculture contactāāand therefore, an emergent cultureāis taking place, to lean on cyberneticist and anthropologist Gregory Bateson. (Also, where are my Actor-Network Theorists at? Those dissertations are in the works, Iām sure. š¤)ā
āļø Where in the sesquipedalian sewage system did that come from?? š®
(Also, just gotta love how Iām accusing anthropology of anthropocentrism (like, duh?), and moreover, without clarifying how Iām conceptualizing culture, it would be totally fair for someone to say, āUhm, Amy, if the chat is āculture contactā, arenāt you anthropomorphizing LLMs as being like a people?ā š)
ā¦Look, something Iām trying to push myself to do, specifically through this practice of blogging, is to learn how to write around (?) my uncertainty. Otherwise, sharing the journey, where Iām at as I build, would be impossible. (Perhaps my uncertainty will encounter the missing puzzle piece of someone elseās certainty? š¤ Perhaps the uncertainty can help someone elseās uncertainty feel a little lighter š«¶ Justā¦donāt ask me right now, not even half-way through this weekās attempt. š« )
Here, the uncertainty radiating out of every space mark would seem to be that of how to articulate a rather dense set of ideas around technology, culture, and language that underpin my entire approach to AI and ethicsā ideas that come from not exactly the most mainstream of theorists when it comes to the general public. Furthermore, these ideas have probably been digested and metabolized in weird ways by my academic, scavenger brain. š¦
The above game of hot potato falls flat because I hastily/sloppily throw out hints of:
- Culture as practice vs. attribute: culture is not a fixed property but a shifting set of doings (Culture Techniques ā B. Siegert).
- Non-human actants: tools, code, and systems can exert agency in networks, which makes LLMs participants that shape outcomes without being āpeopleā (Actor-Network Theory ā B. Latour).
- LLMs as statistical-consciousness-aggregates: not people, not conscious, not bearers of a capital-C Culture⦠butā
- ā¦because there is explicit, word-based communication and dynamic feedback (learning and adaptation across ontological divides), conversational exchanges can still be treated as a kind of bilateral culture contact (Cybernetic Theory; Deutero-Learning ā G. Bateson).
However, when these potatoes are justifiably flung back at me as Questionsā¦I have to let them fall. š
Because nowās not really the time to expound on the theoretical scaffolding, frankly.
Itās time to test whether it can even hold the weight of the buildā by informing the design of metrics. ā° šļø š
Fig B: Don Q & I, getting a much better sense of what weāre actually tackling
The REAL Gap
At this point, I must confess: when it comes to taking unstructured, qualitative notes-from-the-field data, and distilling them into quantitative metrics that can triangulate even as they reduceā¦I am at a bit of a loss.
This, Iāve realized, is the real gap between the theory and the build: how do we move from rich, messy human-AI conversation logs to numbers that still mean something? And itās not a gap out in the fieldājust in my current knowledge.
It turns out, of course, thereās an entire field obsessed with exactly this kind of translationāone I hadnāt properly explored before: Human-Computer Interaction Studies. So this past week, I took the time to read some papers from this arena; this week, Iāll be putting together a little slide-deck overview.
Just a sneak preview: there are some truly clever experimental precedents, even if their research questions donāt map perfectly onto mineāthings like:
- Remote Clique metrics for measuring topic diversity across exchanges;
- Markov Chain Monte Carlo algorithms to peek at human-AI semantic alignment;
- and some good old-fashioned psychometric validation (hello, Cronbachās alpha) before busting out the ANOVA for hypothesis testing.
10 fresh-out-the-oven papers, from 2024-2025! (Thanks, Perplexity AI; and preemptively, Notebook LM, Claude, and ChatGPT as I dive into the details š¦¾šŖ) Gonna catch all these hot potatoes and make us some fries š
ā¦And before we go this week: mini-updates
š The ChatGPT Archive Project
To date: 435 separate conversation windows with ChatGPT, spanning December 31, 2023 to October 24, 2025. Iāve exported all of them as markdown files and started playing around with parsing.
Cannot recommend this plugin enough: ChatGPT Exporter. Elegant solutionāit takes the HTML from the conversation window (right click > Inspect > Console) and extracts the structure for you. š
š„ LLMs, Serendipity, and Finding Fertility Madrid
As I continue reflecting on the clinic search process, the interplay between researching with LLMs from my armchair, so to speak, and research that could only have been accomplished by going out and taking my chances in the world, becomes ever more strikingā¦and subtle.
Back in the US, I uploaded pricing PDFs to Claude and asked in the most general way what they thought. Claude picked out details, categorized pros and red flags, and gave an overall assessment of āclarify these, but overall, it looks transparent.ā
Going with their assessment would have been a huge misdirect. I needed to actually talk to different clinics to realize the first one had a catch: āup to 10 eggs included, extra charge for each one over.ā This sounds reasonable until you learnāas I did at another clinicāthat the target is always 12-15 eggs per retrieval cycle.
But hereās the thing: until Claude, I had not explicitly raised pricing transparency as something to look forāas a concept to be conscious of. Sure: affordability. But pricing transparency covers a crucial element of āfairnessā that affordability doesnāt, even when I combined my āaffordabilityā thinking with āhigh qualityā. The question pricing transparency captures is Trust.
So, while Claude couldnāt verify the fact, they surfaced the framework. And when the real information arrived (through human conversation), I was ready to recognize it and make the right decision.
Where āconceptual framingā falls between āfindingā and āgivingā the right answer: thatās exactly the kind of nuance I want to measure in human-AI interaction.